My Restless Brain-er

2 days ago my bachelor casually said, oh and by the way have I told you my matrikulasi results are out on the internet today and I found out that I have a 4.0 CGPA? - like getting a result like that is equivalent to taking a stroll in the park or something. I said no yang, you havent but congrats anyway (equally casual). I mean, if someone tells you something like that excitedly, your responses would reciprocate that emotion, right?

Well, that's my son. He hides the emotions under a lot of layers. He's a bit blur on things too. When he was in form 5 he went to school on a state public holiday (come on, he was 17 after all!) He wore glasses ever since he was 7. He owns a t-shirt that says 'restless brain' across his chest. He loves physics and calculus - thinks these are the most easiest and coolest subjects in school (I dont know why). Hates bio, sejarah as these are reading subjects and he needs to memorise things.

He doesnt care about fashion, clothes - yang seadanya is ok with him. He loves manga and animae (? is that correct spelling?) and listens to songs like 'Phantom Of The Opera' - ha-ha.. his abangs go like duh, what are you listening??!

At 14 I told his tuition teacher that he is stubborn (we had our clashes) but Mrs Ng's responses made me look at his stubborness differently - she said he has a very firm stand on things that matters to him and that is a good character of a leader. I said, you think? She said yes. Till today I thank her for letting me see that facet in him.

This break he's keeping his hair long although I threatened to buy him pretty butterfly clips to keep his hair in place.. His hair is alway falling to his face - almost like Violet in The Incredibles. But in a way he looks quite endearing (what else would a soppy mum like me think, right?)

As I am finising this post I am thinking that Masya'Allah, I am blessed in so many ways that I do not notice. Please let me always be thankful and mindful of these blessings..

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An Outrage!

Someone mentioned to me that that lady on the cable tv is a lesbian. I said shhh.. the little ears are listening. His father asked - do you know what that is..? He said yes, if gay tu lelaki dengan lelaki.. kan.. kalau perempuan ...

I protested - enough! please dont continue. But I asked how did you know that? He said, in typical innocence of a child (like there is nothing wrong with what is being discussed) - ustazah cakap.

I dont know if I should be angry or ? I have mixed feelings over the topic. After much debate whether the birds and the bees should be discussed in schools I think I am an orthodox after all where the subject is concerned. I wish the ustazah didnt mention the matter but not mentioning it doesnt make it go away anyway. But I want to protect him as much as I can from all unpleasantness fir a little bit longer..

Where Is The Feeling?

Although I keep telling myself (and the people around me) that hidup bukan untuk kerja, work keeps engulfing me and I get lost in the turmoil of it. I cant remember when was the last time I update this blog (need to check after this) - had not been in the mood seeing things are in such a bad shape in the office..

Had had meetings outside the office the last couple of days and since the meetings ended early I came straight home. BUT after two days of doing that I am now feeling guilty as the other team members work hard to get things crammed and completed into the tight schedule and I am home early (I suppose nothing will ever please us humans).

Wish I had more interesting things to write about - I do actually cme to think of it - but the words would just not flow. Bak kata kawan-kawan ~ feel tu tak ada. Maybe when I'm less preoccupied I could describe things with better words.

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Sunday Blues

This morning I came across a few oldies videos on youtube. The songs sounded exactly like they did what ~ twenty odd years ago. With Journey and Steve Perry and Bobby Brown and even my God, REO Speedwagon.

Makes me feel like crying while listening to those long ago days songs. Not that you want to go back to then or make you not want to move on. But just so sad..

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Semangat Gitu..

I am sitting in front of my laptop this afternoon and thought that ~ it's going to be Fri tomorrow - yippee! - and then it is Sat already.

I think this weekend I will try make some pastries that I had learnt with Kak Pau years ago.. which I never tried at home. That should be nice. And then I should go to pasar tani and get some prawns and try that chili recipe from my Thai recipe book - he-he..

Sun, I might have to cook something for that family meeting at my brother's house. We're going to discuss his son's wedding in June. It's going to be a busy weekend.

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Revisiting Passion (Yet Again)

I love early mornings when I can quietly dream about life.

This morning as I sip coffee and flip through my Chicken Essentials cookbook I thought I should start getting passionate about cooking (all over again). Cant remember when was the last time I did any baking - last raya maybe? Tried a new recipe? - like never in a looong time.

Yeah, I should go revisit the passion to cook - and be like Jaime and maybe Nigella or Kylie. Unfortunately for me this luxury just come and go, here today and gone on the morrow. But while this passion is here, I will ride on it and take full advantage of it while it lasts.

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