Trying To Stay Quiet About It But Cant

I am ecstatically happy but anxious at the same time. My boss stopped by my desk early this morning and said that my transfer letter is actually sitting on the PD's table. I go like Masya'Allah, Alhamdulillah.

The talk about the career move has been going on for the past couple months or so; but with the school holidays and the problematic upgrade thrown into the equation, it has seem like forever.

The people executing the job had promised 1st Aug as the official transfer date; but takdir semua di tangan Allah. I have actually quietly cleared some stuff and taken them home / thrown some out; dont want to keep everything as last minute. But dont want to make noise about the whole thing at the same time.

My boss had said, Can you delay your transfer? and Do you have to go? and even, I can ask the PD to cancel the approval. I said No, Yes and Please dont. I felt humbled that she wants me to stay but quietly said no one is indispensible.

I told her I said to the PD that at certain time in life you feel like the time is right, the decision is right and that you just have to do it. And this feels exactly like an instant like that.

It could be a total mistake down the road, who knows? Let's be pragmatic about that.

The photo is like I'm heading for a clear, bright future on a straight path under the blue skies, like happy days in the horizon. Insya'Allah.

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Buses & Trains

I was going to write about Eirfan's exams; but decided to write about public transports after reading Zana's comment on the rush for the trains after the Man U match on Sat.

After years of avoiding public transports, I actually took the train these last two weeks - a few times, mind you. If you know me, you'd know how I avoid public transports - even cab rides - like the plague. Things just happen when I take the bus, train or cab.

I wasnt scratched (yikes!) like Zana was - I was travelling in the early evening so there's not much rush. On the ride I saw a woman with a scarred face. She bent her head all the time. I said a thankful prayer that my family is blessed with "perfect" features.

There were a couple of guys who boardered the train together. The second guy wrapped both arms around his friend's shoulders from behind. Then around the waist. Needless to say there were hard stares from those on the train. I pray keluarga tidak diduga oleh Allah sebegitu. Takut ya Allah. I averted my gaze from them. I wondered if it is possible to call the police - tangkap ataupun dikenakan hudud (?).

I suppose there is nothing like a train ride that can make you feel lucky, blessed and fortunate. And terasa takut and humbled at the same time.

There was a lady sitting and reading on the train but kept pulling up her neckline so that her chest wasnt exposed to the eyes of those standing. Siapa suruh cari pasal?

There was also a lady who was standing in the train who opened her plastic bag and took out her newly purchased sweater. She put the sweater against her body and look at herself in the train windows. Come on la. Nak try baju pun tunggu la sampai rumah.

And I especially hate people who do not have the courtesy to stop talking on the phone while in the train. I dont want to hear / know all the details of your conversation (which managed to haunt me while I was trying to fall asleep that night).

I wonder what my entry would be like if I were to take the train at peak hours. I actually salute those who can tolerate the stress commuting in trains / buses or even cabs. Me? Give me traffic jams any time!

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Dari Surah Al-A'raaf (One Of The Zillion Significant Things I Didnt Know)

And as I was reading in the quest for peace and food for the soul, I found this, dari surah Al-A'raaf :

46. "Dan di antara keduanya (Syurga dan Neraka) ada tembok "Al-A'raaf" (yang menjadi) pendinding, dan di atas tembok Al-A'raaf itu ada sebilangan orang-orang lelaki yang mengenal tiap-tiap seorang (dari ahli-ahli Syurga dan Neraka) itu, dengan tanda masing-masing. Dan mereka pun menyeru ahli Syurga (dengan memberi salam, katanya) : Salaamun'alaikum (salam sejahtera kepada kamu). Sedang mereka sendiri belum masuk Syurga, padahal mereka ingin sangat memasukinya.

47. Dan apabila dialihkan pandangan mereka kearah ahli Neraka, mereka (berdoa dengan) berkata : Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah engkau jadikan kami bersama orang-orang yang zalim.

48. Dan orang -orang yang berada di atas tembok Al-A'raaf menyeru beberapa (ketua kaum kafir) yang mereka kenal dengan tandanya, dengan berkata : Nampaknya kumpulan kamu ramai (atau kekayaan kamu yang besar) dan juga segala apa yang kamu sombongkan dulu - tidak dapat menolong kamu.

49. (Mereka bertanya pula kepada ketua-ketua kaum kafir itu dengan berkata) : Itukah orang-orang yang kamu ejek-ejek dahulu dan kamu bersumpah bahawa mereka tidak akan beroleh rahmat dari Allah? (Sekarang dikatakan kepada mereka) : Masuklah kamu ke dalam Syurga, tidak ada kebimbangan (dari berlakunya sesuatu yang tidak baik) terhadap kamu, dan kamu pula tidak akan berdukacita.

50. Dan (Tuhan menerangkan pula kehinaan ahli Neraka dengan firman Nya): Ahli Neraka menyeru ahli Syurga (dengan berkata): Limpahkanlah kepada kami sedikit dari air atau dari rezeki (makanan) yang telah dikurniakan Allah kepada kamu. Mereka (ahli Syurga) menjawab : Sesungguhnya Allah telah haramkan kedua-duanya atas orang-orang kafir.

51. (Tuhan berfirman : Orang-orang kafir itu ialah) orang-orang yang menjadikan perkara-perkara agama mereka sebagai hiburan yang melalaikan dan permainan, dan orang-orang yang telah terpedaya dengan kehidupan dunia (segala kemewahan dan kelazatannya). Oleh itu, pada hari ini (hari Kiamat), Kami lupakan (tidak hiraukan) mereka sebagaimana mereka telah lupa (tidak hiraukan persiapan-persiapan untuk) menemui hari mereka ini, dan juga kerana mereka selalu mengingkari ayat-ayat keterangan Kami.

Esok Isra' Mikraj; Insya'Allah kata nak puasa. Is that surah Al-Buruuj cerita pasal Isra' Mikraj ni? (I checked but no, it is not Al-Buruuj; kena cari yang mana. Mungkin sempat malam ni; sekadar mengingati & menghayati perjalanan Rasulullah saw. Happy fasting to you too).

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Blog Update

And I decided to change the background to a cute pastel color. I usually avoid these particular shades - I dont think they are my color. But on days when the moon hides behind the clouds (eh, macam werewolf pulak..) or when there's an eclipse of the sun I somehow would choose pink or shades thereof.

Go to this website to find the sweetest templates as the name implies; http://www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/. Personally I love Special Day Blue (on page 12) or Clover Vineyard (on page 5) and Barefoot Beach (on Page 1).

I'd love to make the blog more artful (interpret that as you will) but do not have the time to explore, the inclination and most importantly - nor the talent actually!

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A Non-Toxic Office Story

And life is a bit slow these days.

My BFH (whom I reluctantly call BFH these days anyway since I've turned over a new leaf, ha-ha, as if!) has moved one floor down and she is actually no longer my boss.

The new boss is a petite lady with a soprano voice; whom I suppose if she goes on her highest pitch, the windows would surely break. Other than that I dont know her that well to make any comments.

And Zah who had the cubicle next to mine has moved upstairs too. I didnt know I could miss her. But I do. We shared all the office gossips together. When I come early in the morning she'd already be at her desk and when I go home in the evening we'd leave together or more often than not she'd still be working on her laptop.

I once told her that when I think about dedication and commitment, I'd see her face.

So these days when I walk into the office in the morning there is nobody in the next cubicle. The new person who sits there comes in at a little bit before 9 and then asks if anybody wants to have breakfast with her. Duh..

This morning I came in before 730 and sat at my table in the dark. Well, it wasnt dark dark because there is light from the windows behind me. I quietly take my breakfast while blogging.

And anyway I hope this routine will not last much longer. I hope to move on to a new place; learn new things, get to know new people, new bosses. And I hope to maybe be more productive, more motivated. Insya'Allah.

ps - I wanted to put this under the label of The Toxic Office; but it didnt seem right as this is a post of the office on a positive note..

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