And Life Just Goes On

Work hasnt improved much. And I find that dwelling on that fact wont get me anywhere. Got to move on. But that is surely easier said than done.


And life goes on.


We fetched Ilyas for the last time from his studio aka his second home for the past couple of months or so last week. His blanket and pillows and clothes and mug and workstation and .. were all at the studio. For a while it was like eat, work and live at the studio. He's finished his degree. Sedih pulak dia kata nak tinggalkan university.


I said that's life, yang. It moves on whether we are ready to do so or not.


Eirfan is much pleased with all his adorable abangs being home and double celebrated over the fact that his eldest abang will not return to college anymore. Last weekend his friend rang our bell and said something like, you better come out and play today or else.. And I chased him out of the house to play too.


He is having his exam this week which is so tough for him when his abangs are around and hooked up at the computers around the clock. And he is being forced by his mother to study. Bertempik mak dia sebab tak boleh lepas pandang sikit or he'll be huddled in front of any of the computers too. I cant wait for the school semester to end.


Life is slowly returning to normal. I am reading again, something serious this time. I find this particular book precious in a way that I want to savor each word written. Read each page slowly, taking my time pondering over the contents. Menyelami perasaan penulis. I'll post that when I am done with it.

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Life At This Point

So the boys are home again. The fridge is filled beyond its max capacity. I thought of going for my morning walk at 7am today but the boys almost begged for breakfast. I was happy to skip the walk anyway.. (fyi, that's the kind of relationship I have with healthy lifestyle..)

Had a chat with my sister - my mum had a fall in the bathroom! Alhamdulillah the xrays showed no broken bones. Nak jadi jugak, walaupun berjaga-jaga.. She's ok except for multiples aches here and there.



I think there is something wrong with me. I have erratic palpitations for the past few days. And I have lost my appetite in some way (it's time I should, you mean..?) I think I should go see what's wrong with me if these persist.



And I finished the beading on Siti's baju last week. The photos are here. I am starting to sew a couple of baju raya but that's progressing a bit slowly.




And I am visiting a couple of friends to ask about moving out of my toxic office. I cant seem to come to term with 'isnt life wonderful?' while working there - because life is hellish. Enough said.

I have also picked up gardening again. We redesigned the pond we have at the back of the house (it was taken over by the frogs for a while..) I love the new water feature, maybe I'll post a gambar of that soon.

The cempedak tree has lots of fruits. I've cleaned the mess from my vege patch too (unfortunately my patch only have ubi kayu, daun kari and serai..) The pokok cili has squigly leaves and no cili.. yet (alway the optimist, I am).

I was bad too - I burned the dry leaves that we had raked from under the cempedak tree (how environmental friendly is that..?)

We went to Sg Buloh last weekend too. I was looking for a bougainvillae aka bunga kertas (although my mum called it bunga bulang all my life) with multiple colors. The medium sized tree with multi colored flowers and prominent bright red ones cost anywhere from RM400 - RM1,800! Seriously I cant afford those.

I bought a cheap bougainvillae instead, with no flaming nor lush red flowers. I had dragged Iman & Eirfan with me to see the plants. The pictures are courtesy of them.



Isnt life so stagnant at a certain point of time?

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Memory Lane

I never did want to do this - to attend the hitea to celebrate my school's 120 years anniversary. But after being bombarded by calls and emails from the organizing committee, I relented (like I have a choice?). But thinking this is also a drive for the school charity, I softened further and thought why not?



Disregard the table no 23 - we are the class of 1980. That is like 30 years ago. And that is how long since I've seem most of these long ago friends. Actually they have called me numerous times for tea, makan-makan, karaoke - you name it, but the recluse that I am, I have always declined.




That's the school badge. I almost didnt remember what it looked like. But boy was my memory refreshed. We sang the school song too. Those good(est) old days!




This is a few of the girls with our fave teacher. She was cool (even at the time when the word cool refers only to the weather or water that you drink).





I deliberately put this here too. Just to proof that we had fun. This is a couple of the girls dancing on the floor. The stage was full and we didnt feel like getting cramped up there. So we let our hair down and dance away. We laughed like school girls again and talked till we are all hoarse. Boy was it great to feel like 17 again.

I'm actually glad that I forced myself to go. We are arranging for a smaller group meet up again soon. I had sure had a lot of fun. 17 was a good age.

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Look What Toxic From The Office Can Do To You..

I am still feeling somewhat under the weather from the incident with the BFH (do refer to previous post for clues on BFH).

Anyway.

I asked my husband if we should do groceries today. And we did, as soon as the store opens.

I think I need meat. Lots. Vege. Lots of that too. Fruits. Again, lots. Butter for the cakes I plan to bake. (More) Butter for breakfast. Cheese for grilled cheese sandwich. Cheddar for the caesar salad. Corn chips for some cheesy nachos. Sour cream for .. I dont know what recipe I've read actually, but I know I just need it.

Nescafe (Honey, we simply must get the big bottle). Milo. The large container too. Worcester sauce. For..? (Dont you dare ask, 'cause I dont quite know). Olive oil. Yeah, sure - why not?

Do you want to walk round the garden section? Honey, you might need this to rake the dry leaves. And that gardening hat would suit you.

Uh honey, I think I might need some mushrooms and chicken breasts for the puff fillings. And jicama and carrots for the popiahs.

Oh, look at those recliners! And let's do the DIY aisles too.

Honey, I need some cocoa powder too. I got an email from my sister that went on and on about drinking cocoa although I cant remember what are the benefits.

.............. and I must tell you that the total bill for the groceries this morning shot record high.

I am actually working on putting things with the BFH into its correct perspective. Window shopping (in this case at the grocery store) does help in a way. Dont you dare laugh because I know this for sure from previous personal experience.

But the moral of the story for the morning is, thank god for understanding spouses!

And ps, I dont know when I'll bake the cake, make the puffs, roll the popiahs, do the nachos..

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